Eating My Cake

In October of 2007, I confessed to my husband that I was really struggling with emotional baggage mainly related to my lifelong struggle with food. While I showed early signs of disordered eating, I didn’t truly develop an eating disorder until I spent several years under the watchful and often vindictive and malicious eye of [...]

I don’t often post about my infertility journey here (okay, lately I don’t often post, period. Gotta work on that!). However, I wrote this poem recently, and felt compelled to share it in a place where maybe it might reach more who understand or need to hear someone else does.
Ready
I am ready to let go
To [...]

Okay… so….
In January, my husband and I began to play Second Life. It’s a virtual world, for those who don’t know.
In February, we met this girl… we soon developed feelings for her.
In April, we met her in real life. She’s been to our house twice now and is eventually moving in with us.
We’re redefining love.
We [...]

I have never been comfortable admitting when I am depressed. It is such an unusual sensation for me, and therefore one I fight tooth and nail every time.
However, right here and right now I will say it… I’m depressed.
It’s not as if I haven’t battled this ugly monster before. I experienced severe depression [...]

I just want to wish everyone a very happy holiday…
I don’t believe in New Year’s Resolutions. I think they set us up for failure. I do, however, think it’s worth looking back on the year, and to take time to think about what you want to accomplish in the year to come.
For me, [...]

I planned to blog every Sunday (or once a week). I didn’t blog Sunday because my husband had to go back east. His father is dying. For many reasons, I am home and he is there, and that’s very hard for me.
It’s a long, sad story that has nothing to do with my blog, except [...]

I have a cold. It’s not that bad of a cold, but combine it with the fibro and all hell breaks loose.
I am having a hard time eating. I don’t have the energy to eat. I remind myself that I need to eat, it’s important for my body… but preparing food is way more [...]

My dinner is taking forever to cook… so I figured I would post the recipe.
It’s one of those really easy things, because standing to cook is hard for me these days, with the pain from the fibro. In fact, standing is the most painful thing I do. Walking is easier. But I digress.
Autumn [...]

Below is a transcript of a conversation I just had with Hope. I should tell you that Hope was arrested Sunday for stealing more Coricidin. I knew she was using… unbeknownst to her, one of her friends confided in me that she suspected it, and our mother knew because Hope was barely eating, a sure [...]

Dr. Didnotlisten,
I saw you for an initial evaluation to diagnose probable fibromyalgia. You told me you wanted to see me again in a month, and that you would call me with the lab results. I wanted you to be aware of why you won’t be receiving those results and why I will not follow up [...]