Eating My Cake

In October of 2007, I confessed to my husband that I was really struggling with emotional baggage mainly related to my lifelong struggle with food. While I showed early signs of disordered eating, I didn’t truly develop an eating disorder until I spent several years under the watchful and often vindictive and malicious eye of [...]

Principle one of Intuitive Eating is to reject the diet mentality. This is the first principle for the very simple fact that without being prepared to fully and totally accept that dieting, and the mindset it puts one in, does not work, you cannot be an intuitive eater. You simply can’t. If you’re thinking about [...]

I have never been comfortable admitting when I am depressed. It is such an unusual sensation for me, and therefore one I fight tooth and nail every time.
However, right here and right now I will say it… I’m depressed.
It’s not as if I haven’t battled this ugly monster before. I experienced severe depression [...]

In June Serena told me about the great opportunity she had to work directly with a brand new in-patient eating disorder center in Denver. At the time, she said she’d planned to keep office space up here, for her local patients. Denver is a 50 minute drive for me, and one I’m not real keen [...]

As I’ve mentioned, I’ve gained weight recently. I know this only because I had to take off my engagement ring, which was really horrible and upsetting for me. My ring is special and unique and a symbol of my husband’s love for me, and while I know that it’s just a “thing,” it’s a really [...]

I’ve posted a bit about some of the family drama I’ve been dealing with for the past six weeks. I don’t go into all that often here because that’s just not the kind of blog I want this to become. However, when it’s relevant to my eating, I have to take a step back and [...]

It is not uncommon for people with eating disorders to have perfectionistic tendencies. I remember being in the hospital, as an inpatient. I was 15, and surrounded by mostly anorexic teenage girls. There were a few bulimics, but for some reason, they tended to be older, in their early 20s. The girls who were there [...]

I wrote this partially in response to a comment in my child development class. Basically, the comment was that while it is sad to see young children on diets, it’s more depressing to see so many “morbidly obese” teens. The student went on to say that it would be nice if it wasn’t neccesary for [...]

I stumbled upon this post on a site that I generally find annoying, and often find offensive. The actual post wasn’t really all that exciting, and didn’t tell me anything I didn’t already know. It’s not widely publicized, but somewhere around 30% of WLS patients* will develop some sort of substitute for eating, which is [...]

As you may know, I run Google alert searches daily on a variety of ED/diet/body acceptance terms. One of the things I search on is “weight loss surgery.” That search led me to this blogger. Her name is Melinda.
When I first began reading her story, I admit I was a bit offended. After all, [...]